Guilt

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Guilt – Yep!  It’s a common emotion for me, a single working mom.  In Dad is Fat, Jim Gaffigan has a whole chapter about guilt, parental guilt.  “I feel guilty, gulity when I drop them off at school.  I feel guilty when I pick them up from school.”  (p.27)  And his list goes on…basically there is no way to not feel guilty!  And this is coming from a happily married, successful comedian and father!  Maybe it isn’t just me!

I took my first vacation alone in NINE YEARS last week.  I felt (and still feel) huge amounts of guilt!  I left my son alone for ten days!  (Reality:  Well, not alone, he was with his dad and my grandma.)  I feel guilty for taking the time, even though I know that it was needed and deserved.  But, it does make me feel better to know other parents feel the same.  I feel bad if I’m having fun without him.  I would feel bad if I left him and didn’t have fun.   Try as I might, that guilt was/is always there.   The beach, reading, no responsibility, and more reading…the vacation was worth it.  But, I don’t think I will be taking another ten day vacation without my boy anytime soon…

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